December 31
Gave The Best We Had To Give: The Last Masterpieces
The Days Between (12/11/94 – Oakland-Alameda County Coliseum • Oakland, CA)
So Many Roads (9/18/94 – Shoreline Amphitheater • Mountain View, CA)
Black Muddy River (7/9/95 – Soldier Field • Chicago, IL)
BONUS TRACK: And We Bid You Goodnight (9/20/70 – Fillmore East • New York, NY)
We have arrived at the last day of this year’s project, so it seems appropriate to conclude our tribute to Robert Hunter by covering the final masterpieces composed by the Hunter/Garcia songwriting team – namely, “The Days Between,” “So Many Roads,” and “Black Muddy River.” They came at a time when the once very prolific songwriting team of the 1970s was long beyond the days of churning out an album’s worth of material a year, making these compositions all the more poignant. While Hunter continued to write, Jerry did not. Hunter expressed some regrets about that in his posthumous email to Jerry in August 1996, titled One Year Later:
One of my few regrets is that you never wanted to finish (Terrapin), though you approved of the final version I eked out many years later. You said, apologetically, “I love it, but I’ll never get the time to do it justice.” I realized that was true. Time was the one thing you never had in the last decade and a half. Supporting the Grateful Dead plus your own trip took all there was of that. The rest was crashing time. Besides, as you once said, “I’d rather toss cards in a hat than compose.” But man, when you finally got down on it, you sure knew how.
Read the rest of Hunter’s email here: https://archive.org/post/318384/jerry-eulogy-request
The scarcity of Hunter/Garcia material during the later years isn’t the only thing that makes these songs special. A big factor is the quality and content of Hunter’s lyrics. Perhaps sensing that the end was near, Hunter knew he had to make these last ones count. These three particular songs seem autobiographical, as if he wrote them for Jerry. They also carry a common theme – a reflection from the perspective of somebody at the end of his life. Hunter cleverly uses metaphors and images to express that theme, such as the last rose of summer, the last bolt of sunshine, August dies, counting the years, collecting dust, giving the best you had to give, and having so many roads, but only wanting one to take you home. These lyrics stand in stark contrast to a song like “Ripple,” which was written from the perspective of somebody in their youth who has their whole life ahead of them – a life full of promise and optimism.
Also, whether or not it was intentional, I find it interesting that Hunter seems to reference lyrics in songs he wrote during the early years. It is another clever tool he uses to revisit or reflect on the past which is something we tend to do as we age. For example, the lyrics in “Black Muddy River” reference “Ripple” (“Listen to the ripples as they moan”) and “Eyes of the World” (“sing me a song of my own” / “sometimes the songs that we hear are just songs of our own”). Another less obvious reference is in “The Days Between” (“once we grew into our shoes, we told them where to go”) and “Crazy Fingers” (“gone are the days we stopped to decide where we should go we just ride”). And, by the way, am I the only one who thought the band was busting out “Mountains of the Moon” the first time I heard them perform “The Days Between”? There is definitely some similarity in the musical composition there.
The Days Between
According to Robert Hunter, “The Days Between” is the last song he ever wrote with Garcia. The somber ballad was written by the pair while on vacation in Hawaii during the winter of 1993. Nostalgic and subtly self-referential, “The Days Between” throws moral shade on the world’s passage from an idealized Summer of Love to the dark days of the early ‘90s. Here is what Hunter said about the song in an interview with Rolling Stone:
I’ve heard Jerry do versions of that and leave you a puddle. That is the story of what went down as far as I can see. More so than any other single song. It seemed to get my feeling about those times and our place in it. Jerry didn’t die that much… you know, a couple years after that. He had been into rehab again, and he called me up and he was out and he was going to come over and we were going to get writing again and he said some wonderful stuff that was very uncharacteristic of him. He said, ‘Your words never stuck in my throat.’ Jerry didn’t tend to talk like that, and there was something possibly, slightly alarming about it because he was dead within a week or so after that. Jerry wasn’t like that — to hand out appreciation that way. It was always implicit with him. Perhaps there was a finality to it, that that was the last statement, whether or not he knew he was going to die in a week or not. Apparently he died with a smile on his face, though. Uhh! Those were the heavy times.
With those words in mind, I selected the heaviest version of “The Days Between” that I could find – December 11, 1994. Haunting, mournful, dark, tragic, spiritual – this version has it all. The outro jam is a monster, filled with fury that finds Garcia going nuts with distorted fanning tremolo. In that posthumous email to Jerry, Hunter noted that Garcia sang this song “like a prayer.” This version definitely had the holy on their knees. Apparently GDM thought so too because it was officially released last month as part of the Ready or Not collection, which was curated by the band’s archivist, David Lemieux.
So Many Roads
No song epitomized Jerry’s struggles in his last years better than “So Many Roads.” It is the song where he bared his soul to us – the performances often seemed personal … almost too personal. Some particularly memorable performances were 10/1/94 (“HEAL my soul”), 6/23/92 (huge, screaming finale), and of course, the last one on 7/9/95 (“Lord, so many roads to ease my soul..I’ve been down that road”). Jerry’s vocal delivery on the version I selected is right on par with those performances – extremely passionate – but we also get a few other treats to ease our souls. First, Jerry changes the words a bit, opting for “So many roads to FILL my soul” before switching back to the more common, “EASE my soul.” And then instead of ending the song after the final chorus, which was the norm, we get a rare, post-lyrics GUITAR SOLO! Unlike the brief, noodly solo in 10/1/94, this one is light years better. It starts off a little tentative – a few sour notes here and there, typical in this era due to Jerry’s fragile health. You can tell that he is struggling to keep it together with every note he plays but he stays focused, desperately trying to channel whatever magic may be left in him. The man was playing as if his life depended on it – the reality of impending mortality. Suddenly, he finds a melodic, bluesy pattern and patiently builds it up to a life-affirming peak. It’s an extremely poignant moment. Chills! Finally, he brings it back one more time for a vocal reprise of titanic proportions not unlike the Eugene “Standing on the Moon” (8/21/93). It’s one of those stunning moments that catches you off-guard in disbelief and leaves you speechless. It’s a beautiful, heart-wrenching version for the ages. Essential GD listening.
Black Muddy River
I decided to conclude this year’s project with “Black Muddy River,” the gospel-infused number, from the 1987 hit album, In The Dark. It is the last Hunter/Garcia composition that the band performed and it’s the last song on which Jerry sang lead vocals (Soldier Field, July 9, 1995). Interestingly enough, the band had just brought “Black Muddy River” out of retirement on June 24, 1995 at RFK Stadium in Washington DC (my last show) after a four-year absence (last played on August 13, 1991 at Cal Expo). Hunter wrote it after Garcia’s near-death experience in 1986. It seems more than eerie that the band brought the song back a month before he died. Many people look to the cosmic significance of “Box of Rain” being the last song that the band performed (“such a long, long time to be gone and a short time to be there”), but I would suggest that this version of “Black Muddy River” might just hold that honor.
And, while we are talking about gospel-infused songs, I included the ultimate traditional gospel song as a bonus track – “And We Bid You Goodnight.” This lovely performance ends my project at the same place from where we began – the Fillmore East on September 20, 1970. How’s that for those of you who like musical sandwiches? The Dead ended some of their best shows with this somber, yet uplifting sendoff. And that is the way I have chosen to express my thanks and gratitude to Robert Hunter and Jerry Garcia for touching my soul with their beautiful songs.
I hope you enjoyed this year’s edition of the 31 Days of Dead. I will do a project wrap-up in a few days that will include zipped mp3 files for you download. Before I sign off I want to send a big thank you to Jason Freitag for hosting my project on his blog, linernotesmusicblog.com, and to Brian Levine for creating the fabulous, 10-year anniversary artwork. And thanks to all of you who took the time to send notes of thanks, encouragement and kindness. Happy New Year!
Behind The Lyrics:
The Days Between – https://www.dead.net/features/greatest-stories-ever-told/greatest-stories-ever-told-days-between
So Many Roads – http://artsites.ucsc.edu/gdead/agdl/soma.html
Black Muddy River – https://www.dead.net/features/greatest-stories-ever-told/greatest-stories-ever-told-black-muddy-river
MediaFire:
The Days Between – http://www.mediafire.com/file/iv4q09ofkwkkn8o/83_Days_Between_%252812.11.94_%25E2%2580%2593_Oakland_Coliseum_%25E2%2580%25A2_Oakland%252C_CA%2529.mp3/file
So Many Roads – http://www.mediafire.com/file/5b6p0yeuoogpyw7/84_So_Many_Roads_%25289.18.94_-_Shoreline_Amphitheatre_%25E2%2580%25A2_Mountain_View%252C_CA%2529.mp3/file
Black Muddy River – http://www.mediafire.com/file/k804idi4fssvaox/85_Black_Muddy_River_%25287.9.95_-_Soldier_Field_%25E2%2580%25A2_Chicago%252C_IL%2529.mp3/file
Bonus Track: We Bid You Goodnight – http://www.mediafire.com/file/tx5aywog3hrl4io/86_And_We_Bid_You_Goodnight_%25289.20.70.mp3/file
Live Music Archive:
12/11/94 – https://archive.org/details/gd94-12-11.sbd.unknown.12525.sbeok.shnf
9/18/94 – https://archive.org/details/gd1994-09-18.136849.sbd.miller.flac16
7/9/95 – https://archive.org/details/gd1995-07-09.sbd.miller.114369.flac16
9/20/70 – https://archive.org/details/gd1970-09-20.140664.sbd.boswell.smith.miller.clugston.flac1644
Relisten:
The Days Between – https://relisten.net/grateful-dead/1994/12/11/the-days-between?source=99801
So Many Roads – https://relisten.net/grateful-dead/1994/09/18/12-so-many-roads?source=99992
Black Muddy River – https://relisten.net/grateful-dead/1995/07/09/black-muddy-river?source=100064
And We Bid You Goodnight – https://relisten.net/grateful-dead/1970/09/20/gd70-09-20-s3-t15-and-we-bid-you-goodnight?source=102783
YouTube: Black Muddy River (7/9/95) – https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mKxHQk2I6h
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